Slevin Kelevra (
andyougoleft) wrote2014-07-16 12:01 am
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So, I've seen how these sorts of questions go over around here. I know I'm opening myself up to a lot of troll answers, and angry defensiveness, and cagey suspicion, and this is me saying I'm okay with whatever comes my way. Bring it on. Because at least one of you is going to give me a straight answer, and I guess...
[Slevin is sitting in his room talking to the communicator, toying with something in his hands. It flashes gold just at the edge of the view screen when he hesitates to look down at it, takes a breath, continues anyway:]
I guess that's what I need. Just one. So: what was the worst thing you ever lost?
And how did you decide to handle it?
[ Private : Chris D'Amico ]
You were right. I'm an asshole, but I can at least admit when I made a mistake.
So, I've seen how these sorts of questions go over around here. I know I'm opening myself up to a lot of troll answers, and angry defensiveness, and cagey suspicion, and this is me saying I'm okay with whatever comes my way. Bring it on. Because at least one of you is going to give me a straight answer, and I guess...
[Slevin is sitting in his room talking to the communicator, toying with something in his hands. It flashes gold just at the edge of the view screen when he hesitates to look down at it, takes a breath, continues anyway:]
I guess that's what I need. Just one. So: what was the worst thing you ever lost?
And how did you decide to handle it?
[ Private : Chris D'Amico ]
You were right. I'm an asshole, but I can at least admit when I made a mistake.
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[Of course, the things most people do don't involve completely shifting their life goal to one single, suicidal plan and then training for almost two decades in pursuit of it; the things most people don't do don't include brutally murdering the men who brutally murdered their parents.
He regrets every single day the Boss and the Rabbi breathe air unchallenged. That's familiar. That's known. This possible regret...]
I don't deal well in chances. I'm more spontaneous than... than my partner would like, but I'm not actually that creative. I just know what I'm capable of, and it's a lot, so I don't have to limit myself much. I don't want... it's not fair. That the only answer anyone can give me is "it will probably be worth it."